I can
and do rip into people big-time, for their violent defense of their own religion (even within my own religion) , academics, philosophy, psychology, etc… I tell them … “if you have
to kill in the name of God , you do not know God, if you have to brag you
are educated, or make reference to it you are not, if you have to push your
philosophy on me you are weak in your belief of it …”
people can throw me
off track like this … so how solid can my own personal value and belief system be ????? …
if it can be shaken, by another human being or even all humanity …in science a
“stable compound” is just that stable it will not exploded under any
circumstance … I can emotionally exploded,
as does everyone in life when challenged in a fashion that pushes their buttons …
I
must say … I do not explode fast… but when I do it is with clear vengeance
(awful but true) I will rip you to shreds … I will remember and
wait a lifetime to even the score if need be, no human tribe or culture has anything on
me when they pass down generational grudges … I would like to say this is not true anymore
… but I think it still is and under the right condition, it would surface ... my
body, brain and emotions are still enduring great trauma and stress from the past and in the now ... This is what makes spirituality such a challenge to everyone ... we all have such personal baggage in life and one needs to unpack it before you can truly enter into deep relationship with God ... some people have small suitcases to unpack ... some have trunks of junk! I have a whole moving van of shit to unpack ...
But I know a really good therapist ... it is Dr. J. Christ, he is a specialists in all types of anguish, pain and trauma ... His office is always open, no need to have an appointment, walks in welcomed and guess what it is free!!!!
